it's all too much || {alexis}

[carson cain walker]

<sup>There was really nothing for Carson to do in the auditorium, but he went in there anyway. He could actually smoke in there without being hassled about getting lung cancer or smoking on school grounds. Carson didn't actually care about any of those things and he sure as hell didn't care to be told about it a million times. Telling a smoker something they've heard a million times and can read on the fucking box is just a bad idea. So Carson sat in the third row, his legs propped up on the row of seats in front of him. He was slumped back in the seat, his head slightly lowered. Carson held the cigarette in his right hands between his pointer and middle finger, his right elbow resting on the arm rest, dangling the cigarette over the cold stone floor.

Carson lazily drew the cigarette to his lips and lazily took a drag. He could feel the smoke build up in the back of his throat. Usually Carson inhaled, but this time he pulled the cigarette away and blew out a thin trail of smoke. Smoking was a stress tool for Carson. There was no way for him to be comfortable without it. He used smoking to calm himself down because he was always hyped up. Carson was constantly smoking so the stressed feeling was always there whether he liked it or not. His mysterious dark brown eyes focused on the stage. He took in the curtains and the display. Stages didn't seem right to Carson. They seemed to just be made for the purpose of some ignorant fool displaying their self worth in front of a crowd...whoring their talents to the extent of just needing attention. Then again... maybe that was just Carson.

After taking another drag, Carson slid further down in the seat. He flicked some of the burning ashes of, taking one foot and twisting them till they were no longer hot enough to do any damage. Carson returned his foot with the other, propped up on the row in front of him. It was so quiet and peaceful in the auditorium. The auditorium had a good defense system as well. When it was empty sounds seemed to echo across it, especially big sounds. That meant that Carson would be able to hear if someone were coming. He couldn't miss the doors opening because of the loud sounds they made. Once again Carson's eyes were drawn to the stage. He'd like to think that it was himself he could see up there, but it wasn't. Carson could see his twin brother up there, treasured guitar in hand, and singing as if he were selling his soul for music.

Carson closed his eyes, further developing the scene. He could really just see a whole band behind him, tons of people in the audience, and he could even see things being thrown on stage by all of Peter's admirers. Pete got so much attention all the time. Carson wouldn't be surprised if Peter ended up doing something amazing with his life. Carson didn't think he was meant to do much of anything amazing. He would be okay with just being a nobody after high school.</sup>

[alexis elizabeth murphy]

Alexis pulled open the door in front of her, wondering what was behind it. She had just arrived and exploring the school, finding places and people. Lexi burst through the door, expecting people to be in there. Nothing. She peered around; it was a broom closet. Alexis rolled her eyes. She stepped out of the closet, slamming the door behind her. Noticing another set of doors, Alexis tugged on them. The first thing that Alexis noticed was smoke curling into the air, then a head slumped over a body. Her nose immediately crinkled up. Smoking disgusted Alexis. She planned to tell the boy off, but decided against it.

Oh, hell, she thought to herself as the idea of finally giving in to the temptation of smoking. But, then again, smoking killed people. But one wouldn't hurt, would it? Of course it would. Then she would become addicted and she would end killing herself by smoking.[/color] Alexis let out a shriek; she hated feeling like there was an angel on one shoulder and a devil on the other. Her head shot up, checking to make sure the boy didn't hear her and think see was going insane.

Alexis walked over to the boy, it would help to make friends in this place, until she could get out. She attempted to hold her breath, blocking her nose and mouth with her hand. Lexi stood there for a moment or two before she finally gave into the devil, her personal favorite out of the two. She pulled her hand away form her nose and mouth before asking the boy, "Have any more?" When she realized that she didn't even know the boy, and he didn't know her, she quickly added, "Oh, and I'm Alexis by the way. I'm new here."