DARLING, devon nikoli

[devon nikoli darling]

DEVON NIKOLI DARLING
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I FEEL THE SALTY WAVES COME IN
I FEEL THEM CRASH AGAINST MY SKIN



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AND I SMILE AS I RESPIRE
BECAUSE I KNOW THEY'LL NEVER WIN
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^{ALIAS: Oberon
AGE: no worries there
EXPERIENCE: 3 years
CONTACT: pms cool
OTHER CHARACTERS: no others yet}

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THERE'S A HAZE ABOVE MY TV
THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING I SEE
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^{NAME: Devon Nikoli (nee-kol-i) darling
NICKNAMES: Dev
AGE: 17
BIRTHDAY: 3/3
GENDER: male
STAFF: no}

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AND MAYBE IF I KEEP WATCHING
I'LL LOSE THE TRAITS THAT WORRY ME
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<sup>LIKES: # Music
# Drinking
# Cutting
# Drugs
# Pain
# Trying to feel
# Heavy Bass Lines
DISLIKE: # People who try to change him
# Religion
# Annoying people
# People who act as if they know everything
# The kind of people that are like... drugs are bad for you or... whatever it is they say.
# Schoolwork
FEARS: as much as he strives for it, he does fear when he does find something that makes him feel
GOALS: he... really has none just .. pretty much to see how much he can do to himself maybe
SECRET: he believes hes numb but thats probably not even a secret really
PERSONALITY: Devon isnt really a dick.. hes not really anything. He just is. He cant be labled as really nice, or an asshole because he comments how he feels and if its nice, its nice, if it comes off rude its rude. He doesnt really cater to anyone. He has no feeling, he feels numb about everything. He doesnt have a passion for anything, he doesnt believe hes going anywhere in life he just pretty much goes day to day and usually his days dont change much.

Devon is self destructive in nearly every way possible. He doesnt care about his body, he pretty much views it as just a shell. He uses drugs, any kind, none specific. He parties, he can go without sleeping for long periods of time and then other times he can just crash and not wake up for a few days, well other then to get up to go pee or something. He doesnt eat anything real significant. He drinks a lot, anything he gets put in his hand. back home it used to be everclear with coke or kool aide. He likes the fact that everclear is some of the most dangerous liquor there is. Which is why its illegal where hes from.

Devon just doesnt care. He gets into fights, he'll fight back but he has no drive behind his punches, sometimes he does if he wants a harder hit back. He tries to get whoever it is hes fighting to do their worst to him. He cuts himself with anything he gets his hands on at the time that he wants to cut himself. At one time he even used a plastic ruler. He doesnt like smoke but if its offered he does it.

Sex is nothing to him and his partner... it doesnt matter who it is. If someone wants sex from him, he just lets it happen. He doesnt care if hes prepped or if they toss him around. He lets it happen. Hes pretty certain that there isnt a thing out there that can get him to feel. His thinking is hes completely numb and he tries everything... just to see what it is that is going to be that one thing that gets him to feel. If you sit him down to watch something disturbing. Like.. movie wise... the saw movies. He will sit there and watch it as if he were watching.... my little ponies. He could watch some one getting killed right in front of him and not saying he wouldnt help but it just doesnt hit him like it does other people.

Devon can have friends, but hes not the type that thinks about it. Sure they can consider him a friend, he will hang with them, but he probably wont act like what most people are with friends. He has no views on death either. He is sure if it comes he will take it but at the same time he wonders if it will be from his own doing or just because its his time. Hes very aware that everthing he does is not good or healthy, hes almost void of emotion. He doesnt even have a thought about animals.

Devon does enjoy music, but to him its like.. who doesnt right? Devon likes the drums and bass, he can actually play both, but its not something he does because he wants to be a musician. He pretty much learned to do it because the way the beat if its loud enough next to him it almost replaces his heartbeat. If he goes to clubs or something he stands next to the speakers. It just feels like its beating for him, that its replacing his heart and his chest acts the same as speakers do when its really loud. He likes how it pounds through his whole body.</sup>

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TAKING EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED
BUT WE STILL RESPECT THE TIME
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<sup>HOMETOWN: Wisconsin
MOTHER: Kathrerine - 35 - jail
FATHER: Rick - 38 - jail
SIBLINGS: n/a
OTHER:n/a
PETS: n/a
HISTORY: Devon kind of had a rough childhood. His father was father was an alcohol and his mother was a crackwhore pretty much. So many times she was in jail for whoring herself out just to get some kind of drug in her veins. His parents constantly fought and then he would go get smashed. Devon was definitly not forgotten in the family. His parents thought it was funny to see him in pain. Not all of the burns on his body are from himself and theres been several times hes been in the emergency room room for broken bones.

His father was arrested when he was 8 and thrown into jail for getting into a bar fight and killing the person. His mother started bringing guys home. Considering where her mother was getting these guys, they were not the best kind and she struck a deal with several of the more sick guys the ones whos eyes lingered on the young boy. His mother got extra drugs with those men. Devon learned it was best just to deal with it since he had no choice int he matter. It was to the point that devon wasnt even going to school anymore and of course someone noticed.

They didnt really live in the best part of town, their apartment was about as big as a studio apartment and devon slept in a sleeping bag on the floor. Their electricity was always being shut off. Sometimes Devon broke into peoples houses to use their shower or their washer and dryer since he didnt have quarters to take his clothes to the laundromat. There was a new teacher around and shed taken notice to the dark bruises on devons face and neck. The fact that throughout most of the school year there were only a few months when he didnt have some part of him in a cast. When summer came, devon was suppose to be in summer school and when he stopped showing up she went to his house.

Upon seeing what was there she immediately called social services. His mother was put in prison and Devon was taken from there. He was put into the states care. He was given an aptitude test to see where he was at. Because of how much school he missed and his poor attention skills when hew as at school, who could really focus when they had that going on in their life, they found he was several years behind what he should have been. They tried to catch him up but he never seemed to be able to focus or ... really care. After all those years of being told how worthless and that he was only good for spreading his legs to get his mom drugs, he really just... didnt care anymore. No one seemed to want to take him on, so the state enrolled him here. They really had no where else to put him so they figured this was the best place, why not?</sup>

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WHO CARES DIVINE INTERVENTION
I WANNA BE PRAISED FROM A NEW PERSPECTIVE
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