JOHNSON, ashton cole

[ashton cole johnson]

ASHTON COLE JOHNSON
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I FEEL THE SALTY WAVES COME IN
I FEEL THEM CRASH AGAINST MY SKIN



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AND I SMILE AS I RESPIRE
BECAUSE I KNOW THEY'LL NEVER WIN
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^{ALIAS: JJ
AGE: 23
EXPERIENCE: 11 years
CONTACT: pm
OTHER CHARACTERS: kholden jackson and landon carter}

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THERE'S A HAZE ABOVE MY TV
THAT CHANGES EVERYTHING I SEE
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^{NAME: ashton cole johnson
NICKNAMES: he doesnt like nicknames
AGE: nineteen
BIRTHDAY: 01/01/90
GENDER: male
STAFF: no}

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AND MAYBE IF I KEEP WATCHING
I'LL LOSE THE TRAITS THAT WORRY ME
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<sup>LIKES: Giving his opinions
Sarcasm
Pot (sort of hes recovering)
Riling people up
Music
writing
Drawing
Putting things in peoples heads
Pointing things out, making people truly look at themselves
Cheetos
Raisinettes
Movies
Poetry
DISLIKE: Ditzy people
People who pretend to be ditsy for attention
Feeling like he needs to lean on someone
Talking about himself
Being alone (though he comes off acting as if thats what he wants for the most part)
People who like to push their beliefs on him
Being in his state
Talking on the phone
Pointless things
Being Proved wrong
Feeling unsure
Being out of control of his actions
Not understanding his feelings
change
FEARS: Becoming attached to someone
Rejection
Death
People
Emotions
Ghosts
Small enclosed spaces
Suffocating
Drowning
His Thoughts
His Dreams
Himself
his blackouts
GOALS: Not to become attached to anyone
Figure out exactly what he wants to do with his life
Going somewhere with his Music
SECRET: He was abducted at a young age and sexually abused
His parents are Psychotic
He kind of has a split personality
His dreams... or rather nightmares
what really happened with his parents
PERSONALITY:
Ashton is a very moody person. He can be okay one minute then pissed off the next. Hes never actually been happy before, the closest hes gotten to happiness was just average. He has bouts of being depressed but he rarely voices it aloud. He tends to be sarcastic and cynical, rarely trusting anyone. In fact hes actually quite paranoid about things, All kinds of things too especially the paranormal and disease. He rarely trusts people thinking they have a secret agenda going on and he fails at taking compliments. He doesn't really think very highly of himself even though he comes off as a bit cocky and full of himself a lot.

Ashton definitely refrains from talking about himself unless its about things that he knows is nothing really. But serious deep things are not really an option. He can be very possessive about things and he tries his best to keep himself emotionally unattached. He hates the feeling of relying on someone and he doesnt like people relying on him. He doesnt feel like he can be that kind of a person for someone.

Ashton is quite opinionated about things and a lot of the times he likes to voice his opinions, but at the same time as he voices them, depending on the topic he tends not to finish his opinions. A lot of the time he will brush them off feeling as though he is not making sense and what he is saying is stupid. He doenst like to waste breath on things and he doesnt like to waste time as well. If someone feels the need to talk to him and he isnt interested he wont listen. He will either drop hints that he doesnt care and is bored or he will falt out tell you to shut the hell up.

Ashton can be very blunt at times and a lot of it has to do with whether or not its something he can actually get across in other words. He isnt much for sugar coating things and if he gives you a compliment its because he truly believes it and you need to be told. Sometimes if things need to be said he doesnt necessarily say it. A lot tends to go unsaid with him so its hard to tell how he truly feels and thinks about things. On one hand hes easy to figure out but on another hand its like looking at an ever changing puzzle.'

Ashton does have somewhat of an anger problem. Usually he uses biting words, but a lot of the times he tends to get physical and its not always because someone pissed him off. It could just be because he is pissed at himself and needs physical pain, sometimes it helps him deal with things. Deal with himself. Pain thats what he knows.

Ashton has some intimacy issues. He has been able to get to the point of making out and groping, but if anything gets below the waist, especially under the clothes he tends to freeze up and at times freak out about it. Ashton doesnt understand why he cant get past that, though if he let himself face what happened to him as a child he would know it was from that.

Ashton does have a split personality and during certain times it will come out. Its not as prominent as it was when he was younger. It was the result of what happened to him as a child and when he got home the things his parents did to 'cleanse' him as well. If hes feeling like he cant handle something, his other side will come out to 'protect' him. Ashton rarely ever realizes when this happens he just thinks hes blacked out or hes forgotten anything like that. His other side knows all about what happens when ashton is there cause hes always lurking just beyond the surface to make sure he'll be okay.

NOTE: Somethings may change as I RP him. Nothings ever set in Stone.</sup>

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TAKING EVERYTHING FOR GRANTED
BUT WE STILL RESPECT THE TIME
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<sup>HOMETOWN: city/town, state/country
MOTHER: Judith - 42 - deceased
FATHER: Ander-45-deceased
SIBLINGS: n/a
OTHER: UNCLE Jack - 45 - lawyer
PETS: hobo - beagle puppy
HISTORY:
Ashtons parents were very religious, they really had their own religious intensity about them and they dealt with things how they thought they should be dealt with. If Ashton acted up or got out of line, his parents did anything they though they needed to do to set him on the right track. Even going to extremes was acceptable to them. When Ashton was four he was abducted from his front yard. Of course if he he hadnt been abducted his parents would have punished him for even going near a stranger regardless of whether it was his fault or not.

During that time Ashton was subjected to sexual abuse. The people put it in his head that his parents didnt want him, that he had been a bad child and told them to come and take him away. They told him lots of things and told him that if anyone asked that he was suppose to stay silent. Children should be seen not heard and besides no one wanted to listen to a little kid. No one believed little kids cause all kids lied. It didnt matter anyway, Ashton never remembered what happened, he usually blacked out and woke up later.

Ashton drew into himself. He felt bad. He didnt know what was going on didnt know what to do so he did what he was told not wanting to anger them. It was a couple years later that something changed. The people who abducted him were anxious and antsy and they bundled him him up without a word. They took him to a grocery store and just left him. Told him never to say a word about them and that if he stayed there someone would come. Said they wanted nothing to do with him anymore.

It wasnt long before police were there saying something about a tip they got and they would reunite him with his family in just a little bit. They had questions and tests to run. It felt like forever but finally he was reunited with his parents. It felt strange, he just felt like he was with new people, he didnt know these ones. It had been nearly three years almost and to a little kid it was a life time. Besides these were the parents that hadnt wanted him. Or maybe these were new parents, he didnt know he was a little kid and no one wanted to listen to them. So he just did as was told again.

His parents freaked out though and everyday for a month they stripped him down and scrubbed him clean, made him bath in a tub of hot water. It was so bad his skin reddened nearly instantly but after a little while of sitting in it, it started to feel better. They burned his clothes that hed come home in. Every night they would make him stand in the corner and read aloud the bible.

They told him that god had punished him for the things they didnt know about that was why hed been kidnapped. They said anything that happened was his punishment and now he needed to work hard to gain the lords forgiveness and as long as he was good the lord would have mercy on his soul.

Ashton was a good kid, he went to school and came home. He did all that he was told but theres always a period when a kid starts to rebel when he started to get smart and realize all the fear his parents had put into him about god and hell was all bullshit. The first time he smoked hed was 12, the first time he tried beer he was 14 and the first time he tried drugs was when he was drunk off of two beers and it was his fifteenth birthday. Hed told his mother he was a sleep over with a friend from church. They were 'camping'. She knew this kid and his parents and thought that they were one of the more upstanding people at their church so she didnt question.

Ashton managed to keep his 'sins' under the radar of his parents though his parents would randomly perform cleansing rituals on him to make sure that he wasnt doing anything in his room like masterbating or anything of the sort. Besides they thought he was still being dammed for the things that happened to him while he was gone. Hed never told anyone but his parents said that they knew what happened to kids when they were abducted. That was why god had done it to him. It was a drastic measure but obviously needed to be done so he would be set back on track.

His parents were nuts. The last act that ultimately sent Ashton on the road to Calloway was when his parents were gone. They said they would be gone for two days, something they had to do. Honestly Ashton had stopped listening to them, having only heard that they would be gone for two days. After they had left Ashton, being bored, invited one of his friends over. His name was andy, they hung out a lot after school. Andy had actually been the one that was helping him quite doing drugs, and honestly hed been doing good. Normally he would have told him to fuck off, but something about andy made him listen.

It wasnt until about a month ago that Ashton realized what it was about Andy that drew him to him. He liked andy, actually liked andy. This was a shock in itself since andy was a boy and that was definitely not acceptable. Ashton tried to ignore it, but so many things, so many little things like glances, movements, touches... they did things to him. Ashton never acted on them, never said anything and Andy never acted differently. Ashton figured it was all in his head so he just dealt with it. Andy was a good friend though, probably the only one worth trusting.

This particular day though, something happened. They were hanging around, playing a board game. Ashton decided it would be cool to have a couple drinks since his parents were gone and ... why not really? Andy agreed. They were pretty tipsy, nearly drunk when it happened. IT started with a small touch, a hand on a leg, then it turned to pulling and soon they were making out on the floor, they had shirts off and pants unzipped, but not down, when his parents walked in.

His parents hit the roof, hed never heard his mother yell so loudly. His father had grabbed them both and even Andy was scared for his life. His dad shook them till Ashton thought he was going to pass out. His mother grabbed the bible and motioned for his dad to bring them into the bathroom as she filled the tub with water. It was so hot ashton could see the steam rising from it. She had grabbed the large cross from the wall. She pulled the last of his clothes off and made him get into the water. She put the cross into the water as well before she grabbed the back of his hair and pushed his face into the water.

Ashton was panicking. His face felt like it was on fire, the hot water burning and he thought his mother was going to drown him. He could hear Andy trying to talk common sense into them, but they werent listening. It was as if they had gone crazy. At one point when his face was raised up he saw his father standing there with a large knife. He couldnt see andy anymore but he heard a loud noise and could tell they were wrestling. Next thing he heard was a loud thunk against the tub and the water started to stain red. He started to panic again and his father had to hold him down. Ashton isnt a big guy, so it was almost to easy for him. He had strength though from his adrenaline and when he heard his mother say something about bleeding him a little to cleanse himself in his own sinned blood, ashton knew there was no doubt in his mind that his parents were seriously crazy. His dad grabbed his hand and held it down as his mother sliced across his palm and then his other murmuring about the places that Jesus was nailed to the cross. He caught a glimpse of Andys lifeless form pushed out of the way.

The water was quickly changing from the pink to red as his blood added to it, flowing from the cuts. He was kicking too much for them to get his feet so his mother said it was okay. The important part was not that anyway. She said that she must shed him of his tools since he had used them in sin and would now suffer unable to use it again nor would he be able to spread his sinful seed amongst humanity. When Ashton realized her intentions were to rid him of his penis he seemed to snap.

shton really couldnt tell you what happened. To ashton he had blacked out. All that he remembered was waking up in his bed his sheets covered in blood and his hands hurting. He was still naked his hair still to the point of partially dry but still damp in parts. His hands were wrapped in towels. When followed the trail of blood own to the bathroom and thats where he found his parents as well as andy, all dead dead. Ashton immediately called 911.

Ashton couldnt tell them anything and the scene had been cleaned of any fingerprints. They put Ashton through lie detectors and everything, but he still could not produce any kind of story other then what had happened. He did say that he had heard a voice, a stronger male voice just before he blacked out, but that was it. They had a couple thoughts on what had happened, but again they couldnt find any evidence enough to make any of their thoughts stick. They made ashton go to a therapist for a while.

Since he had no other family other then his uncle they tried to track him down, but his uncle absolutely refused. He didn't want him so they decided he would be a good add on for REALcom. After all he had no where else to go.</sup>

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